Crappy Memories

I was reading Hitchikers Guide to the Galaxy last night when they mentioned someone looking at someone to show anger by squinting. That made me think back to when I was sitting in the lunch room and this girl who liked me looked at me at the angry squinting eye thing. I did not really understand why it was supposed to be cute or funny, however she was very attractive so it didn't really matter. I kind of understand how lesser attractive women can hate attractive women. Nothing an attractive woman does means much to a man, they will generally like them no matter what. This is a simple case of the grass is always greener on the other side. While the less attractive girls do have to work harder for their friendships and develop humor and personality, their friendships have a lot more meaning and are much deeper. As guys will hang out with them for reasons other than wanting to bone them.

I love paragraphs. Well this lead me into thinking about how I really messed it up with her. Looking back I could of fixed it if I did something. It really did not have to be a specific something, it just had to be anything. Doing nothing rarely gets you something. Unless you are a hot female. However being hot is kind of doing something. Lately I have been thinking a lot about my past. Which is weird because I have really stopped doing that in the last few years. I used to think of my past a lot and be all stupid and depressed. Now I look at the past I laugh at the stupid things I did more than regret them. One thing I have learned in life is I regret the things I didn't do way more than the things I have done . At least I got to learn from the things I have done. From that I learned I am really bad with women. I am so bad that when I think about it, it just makes my head swing back and forth as it is swinging now if you could look at me. Well this leads me into my new years resolutions.

New Years Resolutions
1. Do not ruin a chance for a relationship with an attractive female. I did well last year, however I did not have a chance to have a relationship with a female I found attractive

2. Put self in position to have a chance to have a relationship with a female that I find attractive

3. Buy a car. I want a car.

4. Get a job. I have a job, but I am going to have to get one soon. Well I have experience so it should be easier to search. I hope I make at least 2 dollars more an hour than my last job. I would use that money to GET A CAR.

5. Stop ordering pizza, hot wings and chinese food delivery. That is really expensive and not very healthy. Plus I feel like I should eat everything I ordered just because it came with delivery. I do not know why that is. Probably because I could just get more food delivered.

6. Continue to lose weight. My goal is to get to 210 by the end of 2005. That is about 90 pounds to lose. As you can see in my ticker experiment below this post.

7. Buy more socks and underwear. I hate doing laundry. With more socks and underwear I could do less.

8. Buy more shirts. I have too many shirts with holes in them. I need to replace them.

9. Dress snazzier and try to smell better. Why not? I don't think I smell bad, but I could always smell better.

Year in review
This year has been an interesting year. I did not get into any relationships and for the entire year I did not really care. I did get to listen to a girl tell a guy why she didn't want to date me for about 5 minutes. Since I wasn't actually trying to date this girl at the time it didn't really bother me. However looking back I should of just told that girl to shut it. It wasn't any of his business anyways.

Well also this year was my first year with a decent job and living on my own. I felt like such a man. Next year my goal is to become more of a man, which is pretty much how you can sum up my new years resolutions. Which is probably going to mean less video games. I do not have to give them up completely but will probably have to reduce the amount. Growing up isn't as fun. However I still like the fact that I can eat ice cream for breakfast lunch and dinner. I don't, but I can. That is the point.

That pretty much summed up the year. Nothing REALLY happened. I did get my credit in order. Now I have to start paying it off. So I should of put number 10. Cut credit debt in half. Not the most exciting year of my life. Well exciting for me, not for people reading about it.

Happy New Year!!!
I want to wish the few readers a Happy New Year. I hope you have enjoyed this crappy blog. I have enjoyed writing it. Kind of like a diary of my stupid thoughts. I have enjoyed all of the blogs I have read as well. Plus I hope everyone gets really drunk, or not really drunk, or really laid, or really not laid but cuddled or really full or really worn out by all of the dancing or whatever you want to do tonight.

Random Thought of the Day
Ever think about the past and wonder if that is just your life flashing before your eyes. Kind of thinking, "Huh, maybe I am thinking about the past because I am dying soon." Wouldn't it be really creepy if today was my last day on earth. If it is, I am going to haunt, YOU!!!!

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