Year in Review

Another interesting year. I guess every year is interesting if you think it is. Whatever. I don't really care to go too much into detail. A lot of things happened. A lot of things didn't happen. I am alive. Good times.

Review of New Year Resolutions


1. Do not ruin a chance for a relationship with an attractive female. I did well last year, however I did not have a chance to have a relationship with a female I found attractive

Interesting first resolution. So many things change in a year. Now I am not interested in having a relationship. Just want to worry about the process. Didn't do to well with this one I think. I maybe closer than I was before. We will see next year.

2. Put self in position to have a chance to have a relationship with a female that I find attractive

Didn't do this. I do like the attractive females.

3. Buy a car. I want a car.

Booya. Did this. I got a car. yipee. Driving is fun. Kind of.

4. Get a job. I have a job, but I am going to have to get one soon. Well I have experience so it should be easier to search. I hope I make at least 2 dollars more an hour than my last job. I would use that money to GET A CAR.

I did this. I do make more than 2 dollars an hour than my last job. Not much more, but enough to get a car. I hope I can improve on my job status next year.

5. Stop ordering pizza, hot wings and chinese food delivery. That is really expensive and not very healthy. Plus I feel like I should eat everything I ordered just because it came with delivery. I do not know why that is. Probably because I could just get more food delivered.

Did less of this. I can't say that I stopped because I didn't. I did do much less of ordering pizza for just myself.

6. Continue to lose weight. My goal is to get to 210 by the end of 2005. That is about 90 pounds to lose. As you can see in my ticker experiment below this post.

Not so much. I think I actually gained weight. Well going to make this resolution again. Time to get serious. Starting tuesday ;).

7. Buy more socks and underwear. I hate doing laundry. With more socks and underwear I could do less.

Boo yea. Did this one. More than doubled my underwear and bought a bunch of socks. Socks #1.

8. Buy more shirts. I have too many shirts with holes in them. I need to replace them.

Did to this. Need to buy more t-shirts. Problem with T-shirts is that I am used to getting them for free from my dad. Now they cost money. I hate money. Well things that cost more than free.

9. Dress snazzier and try to smell better. Why not? I don't think I smell bad, but I could always smell better.

Well I do smell better :). I bought Cologne. That does help. I am dressing a little snazzier when I go to clubs I guess. I don't know. Pretty dumb resolution this one was.

New Years Resolution 2006

These are always fun. I get to see where I was a year ago. It is always fun.

1. Be serious about losing weight. I have lollygagged on this one enough. I need to stop eating so much and be serious. If my sister can do it I can.

2. Get a better hopefully full time position. I need to stop lollygagging here as well. Need to get a better job. Believe in myself. I am a real dragon.

3. Get in more positions if you know what I mean. I need more doing it time with more ladies. Well not a need. A want. I feel the more I can finish the deed the greater the chance of finding one I want to make my claim.

4. Gain more confidence. This one is kind of lame and stupid just like me. Just kidding. One of my problems in my life is lack of confidence. Need to get this one handled as well.

5. Do more social things. I want to do something social at least once a week. That should help in many many many ways of my life.

6. Pay off my car and my remaining credit card and start working on the stupid student loan. Yea I know. Not the best resolution in terms of sexiness. This might not play out in middle America. However it needs to be done.

That is it. All I can think of at this moment. I thought it would be 9 like the last time. Shows how much I know. Which of course is NOTHING. BWA ha ha ha ha ha ha. Take that Dupree.

Random Thought of the Day
Last night I saw a girl who's body was painted and she had really big boobs. That was awesome.

Today is the first day to die

Well in my life i bought a car. I am going to post pictures sometime this week or so. I forgot to take them during the day. I took some at night however those pictures suck. Today was the first day I drove alone. Freaky.

Internal Cleansing
About last year I bought this Yerba Prima internal cleasing stuff. It is really weird however it does help you do number 2. After the two weeks I felt better. Ever tried it yourself? It is pretty good stuff.

Drunking Blogging
Today I learned that an entire bottle of wine fits into a mug. This is my first blog where I have written when I am drunk. Good times.

NFL

The first time in a few years that most of the spots are taken in the final weeks of the playoffs. In fact only a few teams were in it last week. There seem to be more crappy football teams than ever. If you look at the good teams making the playoffs you can make arguements that they are not really that good. Or maybe the Bears are missing a vocal leader like Lewis. Still it is hard to call Jax a good team when they should be. Even a top team like the Bengals have plenty of holes. It is going to be an interesting playoffs. I can't believe the Seahawks might make the superbowl. I didn't know the world was about to end.

Miami Dolphins
5 in a freaking row. Ever since Saban said that the wins and losses do not matter, that the process matters Miami has yet to lose a game. They have been playing with a lot of heart. Ricky came back last week and had another amazing game. If Miami is able to keep Ricky Williams and Ronnie Brown that is going to be freaking amazing. I don't know how many changes are going to be made. I do hope that Zach Thomas and Jason Taylor are still part of the team. I did buy their jerseys for one. For two they are both freaking amazing and hope they are able to retire Dolphins. It is nice when you can like the player for who they are on the field and hear nothing that will make you hate them off the field. Not that I can know a football player without meeting them. It is just that I have yet to hear anything negative about them. They also seem to be playing for as much as the fun of the game as the money. Which is always good.

Dating
I planned on doing 5 posts about dating but my computer totally effed up. Well not the computer but the internet connection. It is really too bad because I was going to write some great stuff to streach your mind. I will be doing another 8 minute dating. Hopefully on the 22nd of January. So far nothing came of the last time. Which is too bad, however whatever. Never worry about the results. Just worry about the process. Just like Nick Saban said. Basically that works for so many different parts of life. Such as this one.


Merry Christmas
How I feel about Christmas. I hope everyone enjoyed their holiday.

Random Thought of the Day

Well first drunk blog. How did I do?

Dating Post 3

It is hard to post everyday. How does woody do it? I don't think I can keep this up. We will see. We will see. Technically I didn't since it is past midnight. I got Feast of the Crows. I have been waiting for the book forever. I miss Arya. Too bad she is barely in it.

Women
This post I just want to touch on a few points about women that I have learned from other people. Things men should think about them.

1. They get hit on a lot. Almost everytime a man talks to them they are being hit on. Think about it if you were hit on everyday. Especially if you were attractive. What would you do to be able to function? Probably create a bitch shield so you can quickly filter out the wuss bags that you are not attracted to. Think about it with your logical male mind.

2. They like the strenght of men. Most women want a man that at some level could take care of them. Even in today's world where a woman could fend for herself she still doesn't want to have to fend for herself and drag you along. How does she figure out of you can handle her let alone handle this harsh world to be able to protect her when she feels vunerable and to protect her young? Well she will have to test you wouldn't she? She will have to play what men think of as silly little games just to drive them crazy. From reading David Deida's book it sounds like biology. How else will she know that the man can protect her and make her feel secure. She can't ask the man, he will lie. She has to figure out somehow.

So basically don't get mad at the tests. Find ways to pass them. There are many books out there that explain this. Such as Way of the Superior Man by David Deida. Don't let them throw you for a loop. She will lose respect for you. Respect is very important in a relationship.

Sorry for making this one so short. I am tired and wish to rest.

Random Thought of the Day

As many times as you can do something that causes you anxiety. That will help build courage.

Dating day 2

Yesterday was just a preview of a life in a time of my life. Today we will go into things I have learned from what I have read. Disclaimer: Nothing you are about to read is my own original idea. If I figured this stuff out myself I would be swimming in chicks. Don't know how that would work, but whatever. Also this is from a man's point of view. Women have their own million of things to know about men. I don't really care. I don't want to date men.

Things to remember about dating and women

1. Attraction is not a choice. This I got from a guy named David Deangelo. Like many things in life this actually makes a lot of sense when you think of it. As a guy do you deciede that you are attracted to a woman. Do you look at her and think, hmm big boobs, hmm nice hair, like the eyes, good smile, I think I will become attracted to her. Women are the same way. They are just attracted by different things then men.

2. Men are visual creatures, women are emotional. This of course is a generlization. However when speaking of a lot of people you kind of have to generalize. I cannot say, Kerry is a emotional creature, however Michelle is not as much, and so on and so on. What this means for you. It means that what turns a woman on is not what turns a man on. Yes they can be turned on by a nice set of pecs and a tight butt. They can also be turned on by a poem. Think about it. How many times has a woman you are not attracted to acted the right way and wrote you poetry turn you on? My guess is never. I can't imagine it. However women are different. Not better, not worse, just different. You as a man can change your attraction to a woman. Well women can kind of. I have seen it happen but it is two different ways. If a woman is very flirty, sexual and puffs up a man's ego there is a chance they could get them. Women on the other hand you have to show them that you are confident, in control of yourself, capable of handling yourseld, funny, and all these other things. Just think of personal ads. Women write a million things. Somethings that even contridict themselves. Like wanting a strong man with a weak side.

3. Know what you want. Know what you like in a woman. Make sure that the women are up to your standards. Remember you have the right to choose. Also as a man there are two facts going for you. There are more women than men in this world. There are more eligible women than men as well. Also the more sometimes argued fact that as a man grows older his stock rises. As a woman grows older her stock decreases. Just think about it, how many men do you know that needs to get married and have children at 30. How many women do you know that are the same? Plus does your taste in women change. I am 27, I still find 21 year olds hot. When I am 30 I will still find 21 year olds hot. Will I find 30 year olds hotter? I highly doubt it. What a woman likes is security, a man with a solid job, some maturity and a lot of things that happen when you are older. Those only increase as you get older. So the point is, go for looking for women from a point of you could find more because you can. There are plenty of quality women out there. Also know what you want as you are dating. That helps make you focused when talking to women. When you just want anything, you tend to act like someone who just wants anything and nothing of value comes out of your mouth. If you want one night stands, go for one night stands. If the woman is not into it, leave. There is nothing wrong with leaving.

4. There is nothing wrong with being a man. This is something I did struggle with all my life. I felt that there was something wrong with me because I had male urges and I wanted to do male things. Television and women in my life made it seem like it was something wrong with what I wanted to do. It is beaten into us as men since a young age that women are princesses and men are evil trolls out to steal them. Girls are sugar and spice and everything nice and boys are snakes and snails and puppy dog tales. The truth of the matter is, there is nothing wrong with doing what you want to make you happy. As long as you are a gentleman about it. However not a gentle man. Go what you want with honestly and integrity and you will find a woman. As Papa Titus says, "Don't be a wussy." You can be a nice guy without being a "nice" guy if you understand what I am saying. The secret is standing up for yourself and being proud of who and what you are. You are man, hear yourself belch or fart or fix your car.

5. It does not matter what women think. This might sound harsh, however it really isn't. As David Deida is paraphrased by me because I am too lazy to pick up the book and look it up, "women's are like the clouds. They are free forming and can change from one emtion to another in seconds." A woman can go from liking you, to hating you, to loving you, to feeling indifferent about you in about the span it took you to read this sentence. So what they are thinking now could change in a few minutes. Also it is not any of your business what they think about you. You cannot physically change how they are and what they think. It is not something you can totally control. It is something you can try to change. Especially if you try to change her mood and not her mind, something David Deida puts all over his book 'Way of the Superior Man'. What I am trying to say is that if she hates you, so what? It is none of your business why she hates you. It doesn't matter if she hates you. You will find others.

That is enough today I may post more tomorrow. I will see if I can keep this up.

Random Thought of the Day

The one I really wanted to match, matched with me. I am happier for it.

Dating post Day 1

Alright, lets see. I said I was going to do a dating week. Today is still monday for 21 minutes. I believe that still counts.

8minutedating.com
Alright I went to one of these events today. I had a really good time actually. I was very surprised by the quality of girls that were there. In fact of the 8 that I dated only two do I really not want to see again. There was one that I really liked and really hope that she matches with me. Still if she doesn't that is fine. Still got to remember, well you don't have to remember anything as I haven't said anything. One thing to know is that going with no expectation is the best way to go. From what I have read it is none of my business what they think of me. Plus why would it matter there are plenty of women out there.

Before I talk about the ladies one thing I want to say that I went mostly for me. I was proud with the conversation that I was having. I was happy with my eye contact. I broke it a couple of times however that is mostly when I was trying to think of something. When I try to think I tend to look at certain directions. Maybe I should work on this. I would give my performance a C+. I think I made every girl laugh. I could of been better, but I was very good for me.

Here is how my dates went. (this is the nice short version)

Date 1: Lisa - This girl was 44. How do I know she was 44? Because she told me about 10 times. At least it felt like 10 times. For 44 she was very attractive. I would not put her over 35. Maybe even go younger. However she kept on mentioning the fact that the age difference is so big that I know there is no chance at all. Even though she said that she had an open mind. This is a good lesson. It is not a big deal unless you make it a big deal.

Date 2: Jill - This lady had a pretty smile. I liked her laugh. She has a dog. She was fun to talk to. I think I did a good job with her. I really don't remember much of the conversation. I mostly remember fun. That is what I am going for.

Date 3: Anne Marie - This is an interesting woman. She had a very pretty smile and was fun to talk to. She was a saleswoman and felt like I was talking to a salewoman. In fact if I had to pick one of them as a saleswoman out of a lineup, I would pick her. Not saying that is a bad thing. Sometimes it is weird how people can look like their job. One reason I am happy when people are surprised that I am in the tech industry.

Date 4: Irena - I don't think she was interested in me. Maybe it was the fact that she was close to the speaker and could barely hear what I was saying. Still I saw no signs of interest from her. It was interesting hearing about other cultures.

Date 5: Stephanie - This woman was a little older. I don't know how old but would be fun to talk to again. She was a short cute little woman. I enjoyed talking to her. She likes college football. Any girl who likes football gets an A+ in my book.

Date 6: Kate - Tall fun blonde. That is what I remember from her. Don't really remember the conversation. I wonder if that is a difference between men and women. They probably remember most of what was said. I can barely remember any of it. Still she was to talk to. I remember that. She was a dragged along. She is from DC. She reaffirmed the fact that eastcoasters do not like camping.

Date 7: Amelia - This girl was interesting. I remember most of our conversation since most of the conversation was talking about our 8minutedating experience. She is an face talker. That is so cute. She dragged Jill along.

Date 8: Jodie - This girl seems like a fun girl to know. Very easy to talk to. Would make a great friend I believe. She really likes Seinfield. That came up in the conversation by the fact that I asked her how she was enjoying her 8 minute dating experience. She gave a long drawn out good. Which of course I called her on as being a bad sign. you don't say goooOOD. Well she mentioned by how high you point on your face. Perfect Seinfield reference.

Well there is my dating in the nutshell. All in all a good experience. It is one that I am going to do again.

Random Thought of the DayI am hoping the noises from my stomach didn't scare the girls too much :).

Wow forever it has been

Wow it was the Day before my birthday the last time I wrote here. I still get about two hits a day. It is really interesting seeing how many hits I get and where I get the from. Well in the last two weeks I have had a page explosion. Nearly 4 hits a day. That is from people who generally don't check this site I imagine. I got most of them from misspellings. I guess it is good to spell bad. It gets people here. I don't care. I think the reason I stopped is I put too much pressure on myself to blog. Which was pretty much just a little pressure, however it was too much I guess. I burned myself out on something because I just did too much when I cared so little. This takes a little bit of effort and when you want to improve you want to make more effort. Then you realize you are doing this just for the hell of it so you quit. It is like kind of learning the guitar and then wanting to kick ass at the guitar, however you only kind of like the guitar so eff that, then later you pick it back up again and remember the fun. So here is nearly 4 months of my mind.

NFL FOOTBALL
I love football I love football yeah yeah yeah. Dolphins 5-7. They look improved. Enjoyed watching this season. A lot of ups and downs. Ronnie Brown looks to be the real thing.

Can't believe how well Carson Palmer looks. Thought he would be improved not by this much.

Indy looks like the complete team. Going to be a hard team to beat. They are going to get home field.

Holy crap, the Seahawks look amazing. Injuries to secondary might stop their superbowl run.

Cardinals would of been my surprise pick. However they are like the Bengals of old. Suprise they still suck.

Kyle Orton is crap. He may be good in the future. Right now he is crap. Don't buy the winning hype.

Bears defense is amazing. Holy Crap.

Man do the Texans suck.

Who would of thought the Jets would suck so bad. 6 touchdown passes is pathetic.

The Patriots look to be finally going down. What has suprised me is how badly Brady is handling diversity. I thought he would be cooler under pressue of losing. I guess never experiencing it does hurt.

Kerry Collins sucks. Don't believe the hype. He deserves to be benched. He has Randy Freaking Moss.


Hurricane Katrina
This sucked. I was ashamed of my government on this one. Totally sad. One of the reasons I didn't blog because I didn't want to turn this into a Katrina sucks blog. However it did.


PAX
Pax freaking ruled. So much fun it made me realize how little fun I actually had the year before. Wish Kerry would of liked MC Chris more. Oh well, she still stuck it out. What a trooper.


Working Out
I have been pretty good at working out. Horrible at losing weight. Pretty much weigh the same since I have started. I am in much better shape. I am actually doing step. The instructor is so cute. Such pretty eyes. So much energy. The type of girl I like. Plus it is fun looking at all the boobs bouncing. However there are a lot of guys there. Surprising. It is fun though.


Firefly
Sad. I love this show. I almost wish I have never seen it because there will be no more. Damn Fox. They wonder why they are losing guys. Everyone I have showed my DVDs to LOVE the show. It is amazingly good. I don't get it. I will never get entertainment. I guess that is why they are failing is because times are changing and they are not.


Death of the Buzz
Horrible wednesday that was. I was so depressed. The buzz is no more. Radio talk for guys have been replaced by country. I was so mad I got Napster and bought an Rio thingymagig. I never want to listen to radio again because of what I love might just disappear again. It also turns out that my webpage is one of the first to come up when you write BUZZ, BJ SHEA, BJ SHAE, and Maynerd(total misspelling). I have had so many hits because of the death of the Buzz. If I was making money off this I would be a little pumped. Still mad. No live Leykis in Seattle. That is super sad. He has been live here for over 10 years. Still can listen to him online at his home station.


NAPSTER
I got a napster subscription. It is pretty neat. Good work stuff. Listen to new music if I want. But better yet, stand up comedy. I love me some stand up comedy. Listening to Doug Stanhope(funny dirty man), Jim Gaffigan, Greg Behendert, Mitch Hedberg, Even Bobcat Gothwait. All for just 9.99 a month and they still add stand up. In fact since I have joined they added two David Cross cds. I love my stand up.


ABSINTH
I have a bottle. I am going to try some.


Cool story
This spiritual guru who has a reputation for being completely unable to offend. So this macho american hears about this guy so he decides to go challenge him. Upon arrival in this temple precedes to insult him and disrespect him in every possible way. And throughout the whole interaction the guru remained calm and unaffected. The American could not believe it. He told the guru, "I get this whole spiritual thing about not caring what other people think, but I disrespected you. You need to stand up for yourself." The guru responded, "my son may I ask you two questions." The american answered, "Sure." The guru responded, "One, If I offer you a gift and you refuse to accept my gift to whom does the gift belong." The american answered, "If I don't accept that gift, I guess it still belongs to you." The guru then replied, "Right, and here is my second question. If I refused to accept your abuse, to whom does it still belong?"


Dating
Been doing a lot of studying on dating. Reading anything I can find on it. Listening to anything I can listen on it. A lot of David D, David X, and a lot of posts on this one board that they say I shouldn't link. I have learned a lot. Need to actually apply it. Going to start soon. In fact on monday I am going to 8minutedating.com event. Eight eight minute dates with eight different women. It is going to be interesting. Very very interesting. I might tell you the world how it went.


Woody did it
Woody did a dating week. I want to do a dating week. I will see if I can do that. It will probably be a dating two posts. Maybe I can help the old woodman out. I am like a teacher right now. You know, if you can't do something teach. I am filled with information, however I can't do anything, so I will teach.


Random Thought of the Day
Don't you hate december? Holidays are nice and all, however it is almost time to buy a new calander. Who wants to spend new calander prices. However that means to save 8 bucks I have to go without one for January.